Bad mental health day and don't want to tell anyone

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Well, except you guys.

My DH really struggles to manage his own emotions if I am having a tough time, so in recent years I've just started hiding my down days from him, because it's honestly easier on the whole family.

Today I've been struggling since the minute I opened my eyes. I can't find the energy to care about anything. I'm just on autopilot. The kids show me things and I say 'Yes, that's great' but I don't mean it. I just want to lie on my bed and stare at the wall and be blank for the rest of the day.

But I can't. I've just made myself a tea but I am looking at the clock and it's hours until I can switch myself off for a while.

Are you on medication?

Yes, I've been on medication in one form for another since I was 16. I'm 41.

Thought an early night would help. I was wrong.

Sorry you are feeling low op. It's tough when you need some time to yourself and there are small children. Don't be too hard on yourself and remind yourself that you have felt low before and it's got better before. So you will feel better again.

You sound burned out. I’m sorry you can’t get to rest and recharge. Only small thing I can suggest from my experience of antidepressants was that they numbed all my feelings, so I never felt too down but I never felt too up either. Once I stopped them I started to slowly feel things again, and it was nice to have more emotions rather than just numbness. It sounds weird but I “enjoyed” being able to cry and release some emotion, cathartic. Anyways I hope things ease up for you xx

I can't stop my antidepressants, the withdrawal would be brutal.

Thank you, that's a good thing to try and remember.