I'm a bad mum

[strgirl]

I suffer with anxiety and depression, am currently having CBT but no effect as yet.

Life is getting on top of me and I'm worried about my children of which I have 2.

It's obvious I'm struggling, I asked GP last week for anti depressants but they said speak to mental health nurse which I haven't had a call yet.

I just made a bad judgement call with my eldest who is 4 and I'm damaging her.

We was in a restaurant, which was gonna be a ages wait, she went to run off near to servers, I went to grab her arm, missed, grabbed her T-shirt and pulled her by her neck, she now hates me and won't come near me. I'm now off on a walk while their dad sorts out their dinner as I have gone into panic attack mode.

It's so obvious im a bad mum.

Just the fact that you are questioning it and feeling bad proves you are not a bad mum.

My anxiety always makes me feel like I am failing my DC but it's just a thought, not the reality.

I hope you are feeling a little bit better now, the best thing you can do is rest and take care of yourself, and call the GP again tomorrow to get things in motion in terms of treatment.

You hurt her a lot less than a tray of hot coffee would have done. It was an accident, you shouldn't feel bad for grabbing her as you were trying to prevent her running into someone and getting hurt.

My friend has twins and when they were about a year old, I dropped one while attempting to stop the other running out the front door. Everyone has cock ups.

You sound like you have really low self esteem, you poor thing.

That's not awful at all, you were jumping your child safe!

You need some counselling.

Keeping not jumping

Thank you, yes I am feeling slightly better about it today. I am really struggling with low self esteem and body image as well. I can't make decisions anymore as I'm scared I will do the wrong thing.