Sent goodbye message but lived ***trigger warning - mentions suicide***

[cpjoli]

I took an overdose last week. I sent 2 goodbye messages to friends. I survived and am fine but I have blocked them both. I need their support but don't know what to say to them. Please help me word it .

'I was in a really bad place last week but am so thankful to still be here. I'd love to see you / message with you whilst I recover if you are up for that?'

Probably depends on the general feel of the goodbye messages. Were they positive (as positive as a goodbye message can be) or negative?

Maybe start by unblocking them.

@Sparkletastic has written pretty much what I'd say. But yes, unblock them now and let them know you're okay. If they are good friends they will be worried about you.

Oh, so glad you are still here.on this journey we share called life. You can work it out with your friends and work it out with your life too :-) rooting for you!!!!!

Please unblock them. They will be so, so happy to know you're alive. Call or text to say you were in a really bad way but thankfully made it and would love to speak to them. Good luck xx

I would message both to say sorry (I've had one of these messages - and I never ever want another one) and then say you're very glad to still be here and would love to hear from them.

I'm glad you're still here too

OP friends aside, I hope you are getting some much needed help from a MH professional. All the best.

Get them unblocked and get a coffee date booked. You’ve got some offloading to do- so glad you are here. Please get help from doctors and find a way to do things that make you happy again op. You have a purpose and it isn’t your time. Xxxxx I lost my cousin to suicide last year 33 years old she was with two kids- how I wish she had messaged me for help xx

I'm sorry but I don't think OP should say she'd like to hear from them. That adds to the burden that those letters will also have put on them.

I'm glad you're here OP, and hope you're getting the help you need.

I world simply say that you were in a very bad place, but fortunately survived your attempt. Then say that you're very very sorry that they had to see those emails, and for the distress they must have caused. Then simply say that you're getting help to ensure that this doesn't happen again.

I'm glad you're ok. Suicide is never the only option.
Just a thought, do your friends know you're ok as you blocked them?

Twenty years ago one of my best friends took her own life. She left no note or messages for anyone left behind. Had she survived her attempt, I would have wrapped her in all the love that I have with no expectation of apology or explanation. I'm so thankful you've survived OP and hope you are getting the treatment you need. Please contact your friends. I'd do absolutely anything to hear my friend's voice again. I miss her terribly.

Thanks for your replies.
I have told them I'm ok. I'm embarrassed and don't know what to do for the best. One hand I want their support. But as another poster said, I don't want to burden or distress them as they don't deserve that.

I’m sure what OP was suffering much more than they are tbh

I’m so glad your ok! I was in a similar situation last year and survived. Things do get better. You won’t be being a burden to any of your friends I bet they are worried sick about you. It’s normal to feel guilty and regret what you have done also. Make sure you get the help you need. Xx

Of course she was. But in order to reconnect with them, it's wise for her to acknowledge that receiving those letters will have been traumatic.

I've been on the other end of this situation (or at least very similar). I love the friend dearly and was beyond relieved when the act wasn't completed. But it was a terrifying night, which still preys heavily on my mind.

I don't think that my friend has ever realised the impact of that night in me. And that's okay because I don't think he actually has much memory of it, and I'm never going to tell him. But it seems that OP does have that insight with regard to her friends.

You don’t need to apologise or feel embarrassed about anything. Of course, it is perfectly normal to want to apologise, but your friends wouldn’t want you to. And they wouldn’t want you to meet them if it caused more stress, but they probably would like you to tell them if or how they could help you and I’m sure would be more than happy to sit and listen if you were happy to talk.

I’m sorry you are going through this but hang in there a bit longer, I hope you’re getting the support you need but if not, feel free to drop me a message. Not that I can offer much but please don’t feel alone

I'm glad you survived 🌺

You told them you survived & you apologised.

im sure I'd be embarassed too, but looking from the outside, I really don't know why. Perceived weakness I suppose?! It goes to show how ridiculous our thinking is about these things, but I do believe it's slowly getting better.

what help are you getting from professionals??

only you know your friends, but I would want to help you, I'd love it if you told me what I could do to help rather than me second guessing myself as to what I should/shouldn't do.

id FAR rather spend hours everyday listening to you unload, than never hear your voice again!!

justvtell them what you need/ask to meet up/stay over/whatever xx