I'm struggling tonight

[MyNameMayBe]

I'm not really feeling today, you know? I had such a wonderful day today. I was having some "fuzzy" thoughts for a few days. Today I went out on my own (not my usual) and I loved it. All thoughts went away until now. I'm home and all I can think of is how I'm not really getting on in life. Everyone's is passing me by. I feel helpless, alone, nervous. I don't know what is happening in my life. I don't understand it. I don't get it. Apologies for my tangent. I just needed to really put that out in the atmosphere. I hope all is well with everyone and I hope you're all coping ✌️💜

I’m sorry to hear that. Do you have help IRL to process some of the thoughts? In the first instance have you tried a guided meditation- E.g a body scan or whatever on YouTube. They are quite useful sometimes.

The middle of the night is the worst for these thoughts. Someone over here posted a link to a really great website for an org called Blurt. I don’t have the link to it , but it seems better than many websites for helpful advice for when you’re feeling low. It will get better x

Congrats on getting out today!
Sorry you’re having a difficult night after your wonderful day.

Hi MyNameMayBe, we hope you're feeling okay this morning. We can see you've had some kind and helpful responses to your post but we just wanted to add a link to Mind's website as we think it may be useful if you feel this way again - Tips for everyday living.

Sending good wishes

Thank you all for your kind words and recommendations. I do get therapy, but not so much as of recently as I've been doing really well, but the other night really got me. I'm okay now though. Just needed a little help back to ground and thank you all for doing that 💜

Well unfortunately tonight I cut myself again really bad. I'm okay, just took a knife to my head unfortunately.

Oh bless you. Do you need to be looked over medically for the cuts ? How are you feeling now ? Just take things a minute at a time.

@DawnMumsnet when the OP states they've taken a knife to their own head, I think the thread needs more serious attention that a link to the Mind website.

just saying ....

Just an update, I'm doing fine. The wounds didn't need medical attention. It really has been a while since I've done this so I'm quite disappointed with myself if I'm honest, but thankfully my missus is also a mental health nurse so she's really good at bringing me back to ground.