Not sure why I'm posting here as I've never been diagnosed with depression (have had disordered eating for the last 20 years but mild).
What I have noticed is that since having kids, I lose my temper at least once a week, usually once a day with them. When I say lose temper, I mean scream, swear, throw things at them and hit them. I say horrible things to my 5 yo during these times. I have 2 kids, a 5 yo and an 11 month old. The 5 yo is actually a good child (according to school, relatives etc), 11 mo doesn't sleep much (but dh helps a lot so I'm no more knackered than the average mum). It's the 5 yo who normally gets it. I give a lot of love and praise when I'm not losing my temper. Most of the time things are pleasant but for some reason, I can lose my temper very easily with them. This did not happen pre kids. I seemed to have turned into a monster since becoming a mum.
I'm not sure if this is a problem. DH says no, just try and have more self control. We come from a culture where parents hit their kids but I don't want to be like my mum.
I'm too ashamed to speak to anyone about this. If I do need help, is there anything I can do annonymously?
Sorry to trouble you all but thanks in advance for any help.