I've stupidly organised a party for my upcoming big birthday.
It's grown into a weird hybrid party instead of being a chilled bbq it's now a party at a local golf course with bbq, dj, etc.
I would have been happy inviting just my closest friends but feel like I need to fill the space only have a tiny family locally so feeling pressured to invite more which I can do but it would be people I know rather than good friends so I would be worried that masses of them wouldn't come.
I'm struggling a lot with my mental health at the moment I've got ptsd and about to start my 3rd bout of counselling for it so I am fragile.
The stress of worrying about the party is making me lose sleep. I want to cancel but what would I say the invites are out.