I suffer with a lot of mental health issues (OCD, anxiety, eating disorder, depression etc), but I was talking to my partner last night about this and he is really worried and wants me to see the GP. I honestly never even considered speaking to the GP about this on top of everything else because it feels like it's happening so what would they do about it?
- I can't have the curtains open because I think the neighbours are filming me and uploading online, I live in fear of seeing videos of myself and Google myself all the time to check
- I won't answer the door unless it's expected because I think that the police/debt collectors are after me even though I'm not a criminal or in debt
- I'm convinced that others are researching me to 'catch me out' or find out about things I may or may not have done, and this makes me extremely wary of telling anyone anything about myself
- I isolate and frequently delete social media/block people because I think they will use things I say against me or are building up a case against me. I even keep people close so that they won't turn against me.
There is also the usual thinking people are talking about me, staring at me, texting about me etc.
This isn't right, is it? Other people can rationalise it to me til they're blue in the face but it makes no difference I still believe it.
I don't know how to explain all this to the doctor. If there's a chance it's all in my head I'd love to not live like this...