Depression so isolating but loneliness is killing me what do I do?

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Hi everyone, I've battled depression and anxiety for years and years but the past six months has just been so awful. I really feel completely alone, totally lonely, I need the radio on constantly, TV on, lights on, checking mumsnet threads at all hours just to feel like I'm a human being. I have never felt so bad before, but I don't know what to do about it. I've pushed people away because of my depression and now I have no one. I've made bad decisions which have led to me being sexually assaulted at least four times and I've told doctors and nurses but I think not having a real friend to talk to about it is making me crazy. I just don't feel like i'm a person anymore. I have an appointment with a psychologist but its not until the end of the month.

Can anyone advise what I should do in the meantime? Doctors just prescribe medication where I am, they are just too busy to have a chat. I just feel like i'll be lonely for the rest of my life.

Imagine a time when you were no longer depressed or anxious; what would it look like? What would you do then that you are unable to do now?

Hi OP,
you are going through a really tough time and I’m sorry to hear this. Have you spoken with the Samaritans? This can be a way to vent and really get your feelings out. My Black Dog is another suggestion. I’ve spoken with them a couple of times. It can depend on who you get to the rapport, but might be worth a try.
You won’t always feel like this, please do reach out for help.