My OCD and anxiety are spiralling out of control
I've had counselling and CBT and know the strategies but when its happening I cant seem to apply them and my thoughts become irrational and I question and ruminate on every action that I make and I pull a part in to minute detail. This is exhausting as it takes twice as long to get any work done as im easily distracted and cant focus and spend my time worrying, I cant apply myself
My OCD is generally about the fear of harming someone inadvertently with either germs or since covid is on the rise again I'm convinced I could be passing it around without knowing. I had calmed down about covid as restrictions loosened but this seems to have fired up again since its in the media all the time and a friend I was with had it a few weeks ago which put me on high alert again - of course I tested and tested and became obsessed and constantly seeking reassurance which is exhausting for everyone and put a tension in the house. In the end on my requests DS had to hide the tests so I couldn't test any more. This is till praying on my mind and I am trying desperately not to test as I dont need to as no symptoms. I then start obsessing about conversations I've had a work with people and whether I have said and done the right thing - again drive Dh mad with reassurance and run the whole conversation/ meeting through my head so many times I cant sleep. I was prescribed Propranolol to take when I had severe anxiety to calm me down and I've just taken one - only the second I've ever taken. I wonder if anyone else has experience of taking this and also aside from the usual fresh air, exercise and resting had any other ideas that have helped them switch off either prescription or otherwise. Would love more counselling but its too costly.