Hi - I'm new here on the feeling depressed board.
Having a horrible time right now and just wanted to post to vent a little - I'm 4 months pregnant and have a 2.3 year old DD and just feel so alone.
My DH has set up his own company which means we hardly ever see him including most weekends. We're skint and tired. I have hardly any friends - we've just moved to a new area, the friends I did have have all moved away from London now to be near their families - my parents moved abroad last year when they retired so they are not really a support. My inlaws are in Scotland and I'm an only child so no brothers or sisters around.
For a while now when I wake up I have this sinking feeling like I can't face the day. DD is always nice in the morning but as the day wears on it's just a bloody battle over everything and I don't have the energy anymore. She's been hitting me a lot recently and throwing things at me which she never used to do.
Feel like it's crunch time and I should be out there meeting new people and getting a positive new social life for myself but of course I can't I'm pregnant and stuck at home with a 2 year old who I feel hates me sometimes. I'm usually a good mum and quite patient but I've been so short tempered with her recently - I can't bear the tantrums and the defiance anymore. Today I have just been unable to stop crying and couldn't even function to make her dinner. Just gave her toast and sat sobbing on the sofa. I feel like such a shit mum. Putting her to bed tonight she called me horrible! She's only 2!
And to make matters worse, my DH's mate turned up to drop something round and it was obvious I had been really crying with bright red face and tiny swollen eyes and he just looked at me in this horrible uncomfortable almost sarcastic look. Maybe I'm getting paranoid. I guess that's the least of my worries right now!