For years, since I was a child, I've had very severe anxiety to the point now, at 59, I feel it has prevented me from living life and I'm now starting to beat myself up about that. 18 years ago we moved to a different part of the country owing to financial issues. We have 1 daughter 19, I work a fairly ok job but it's a 5 hour commute most days (applied for 65 jobs in 3 years, got 4 interviews, offered none despite having excellent references and qualifications.) I'm at a point where I've started having panic attacks because I've no real safety net for the future. We are, by most people's standards, poor. I've not had a holiday for 16 years, we skimp on food, I don't use Amazon prime, Apple, Disney etc... I know no one in our area (my friends for the most part are in London, some abroad now, some semi retired.) Recently I've felt the need to exercise a lot, this is not driven by needing to lose weight because I'm slim and often mistaken for being a lot younger than I am. Its like I'm 'driven' to do this. I'm also eating 1 meal per day partly because I feel I may need to save money but also because I feel I'm not deserving. Have spoken 4 times with GP who feels my issue is chronic anxiety made worse by things like long commute, stressed over finances and social isolation with addition of being at work or commuting for long periods of time during the week. I've been feeling this acutely for about 9 years. I'm insanely jealous of colleagues and friends who get to do things like take a break and go on holiday, buy a house or spend Christmas with friends and family. I was wondering if anyone else experiences this kind of 'fear of missing out?' I think part of all this may be upbringing.