I am probably the lowest I have ever been in over 20 years of depression 
My gorgeous DD is going through a typical teenage rebellion, egged on by her so called girlfriends- I say so called as there are 5 of them, 4 of which she has never met, plus 1 she has met for 1 day. They all live hundreds of miles from us.
DD’s constant belittling of me and my health issues (physical) have absolutely ground me down and I can’t see any way up. She tells constant lies, personal hygiene is pretty much non existent, and steals.
She is seeing a counsellor weekly - of which I think I’m jealous 
There is a massive waiting list for counselling here, and I can’t afford to go private.
i know it’s a teenage thing, I remember being a little madam at the same age, but as a lone parent with virtually no support network and whose physical health is failing, I just want to go to sleep and never wake up rather than go through another day of lies and battles tomorrow.