Hate my life at the moment

[Flowerymess]

No family in the country, they left. Likely going to break up with my husband. Have two children 6 and 1. Always thought we'd be together forever. Youngest watches way too much TV...mainly because I can't handle her when she's not infront of a screen. She's so full on. I took her to a toddler class and she just tantrummed and threw stuff at people. I've had headaches and dry eyes for almost a year now. I don't think it's allergies and doctor not interested.

I feel so low now, hard to find the motivation to get stuff done. I just want to sleep.

Anyone?

Have u been to the docs to be assessed? Could Post natal depression be a factor?

You describe ur 1yo as full on.... they are!! Can u get a little respite and put them in a nursery for a few hours a week to get some space?

Have u got a job? Even a part time retail position will help u have something for you. The money would cover the nursery (so u work for free) but u get some time to be "you"

Ah Flowery that sounds so hard. I have no advice, just sympathy. (Although I have a one year old who currently is getting too much screen time too - I think the majority of toddlers get far more than their parents admit so please try not to feel too bad.)

I work part time.

I had PND earlier on and was on AD but I don't want to go back on them now because I feel like worse times are ahead and I'd rather be on them then. Like when we sell the house and move.

Thanks for your replies. She woke up at 5am today that is just too early for me.

Wooooah ... stop right there!! PND is an illness. If u broke ur arm would u refuse a cast because u might break it later and need it then?? Would u heck!

AD will help u get better now, so u can cope more easily with the harder times ahead. They arent a 2weeks and ur fine job, Expect to be on them for 6-12months at least.

PND is a chemical imbalance in ur brain. If they have been subscribed, take them. Get the chemical imbalance corrected. Get stable and then come off them slowly.

There's nothing to be ashamed of in taking AD and if u can't do it for urself, do it for the kids. Happy mum = happy kids.

I was on them for 7 months then gradually came off them. I felt better. Then my FIL died and husband plunged into depression and sees no future with us together.

I don't buy the chemical imbalance thing on this occasion as I am having a normal reaction to some shitty things.

So sorry to hear you're feeling this way. It all sounds really tough
I agree, you're best off going back to your GP and getting back on the antidepressants. Don't wait till 'things get worse'. You need to start feeling more balanced now.
Has your husband seen a doctor?
Sending my very best wishes!

Just to try and get motivation for say just today. Try the 3 min thing.

Just say to yourself, right, I'm going to clean the kitchen (choose whatever it is you need or want to do) for just 3 mins. Usually it works as a kickstart and then once your doing something it's easier to continue.

Try it with anything, I'm just referring to you saying you have no motivation.

Early mornings are a killer. My boy used to wake up 4.30 every day and nothing I tried to get him back to sleep worked. You just have to try and rest when you can. Get the kids out in the fresh air today, go to the park (or anywhere close by) and use lots of their excess energy. You'll feel better for getting out too. Hugs.

@sunlight81 I don't want to LTB though. I want the bastard to go to therapy and sort his shit put so that we can have a functioning relationship.

@Solosunrise thank you for your wishes. He hasn't and he needs to! Hopefully he will come round.

@welshpolarbear I actually cleaned last night. And I'm at the park now!! Thanks. I do need to break thinks down.