I've had debilitating anxiety all my life. But every now and again it excels itself. I descend into the adrenaline pumping, heart racing, inability to focus on any thing else type manifestation.
So I've been getting cramps in my right hand for a few days now, I've done a lot of digging in the garden and also use an apple pencil alot so rationally the over using it scenario made sense.
Until this morning when I woke up and looked at my hand and it had a purple tinge in some places, left one was normal. Clearly it was bruised without injury, i had a blood clot and was going to die. It could also be leukemia and I was going to die. It could also be kidney failure and I was going to die. Literally spent an hour googling and feeling physically sick.
In my absolute panic, I totally forgot that last night I had dyed my hair and used some purple shampoo.. one very good scrub later and its back to its delightful peachy colour. Now I feel like a complete tit.
Anyway, just thought I'd share because I was hilariously way off the mark and it just highlighted how ridiculous anxiety can actually get 😳