Hello, I’m 58 and totally lost myself and what to do. Kids are now teens and leaving home, and I’m terrified of how to find me again. I had a super good thou stressful job which wasn’t sustainable with baby, and we moved around the country for dhs job. I totally lost confidence and had, I think, a bit of a breakdown. Certainly a lot of crying was involved! Dh had a very stressful job which meant I did all the childcare, house etc. then I got very I’ll and that was incredibly difficult to recover from - physically exhausted, but mentally totally a shattered vase. Horrible. It was a long haul to get back on an even keel, then Dh nearly died and had a long recovery and depression. Throughout this time I’ve been holding the family together and had the odd part time job, but nothing that would lead onto anything. I am applying to anything I think I could do, but seem to be unemployable. My ex colleagues and friends all seemed to have grandparents and help and basically are all loaded and succesful, while I’m not getting anywhere. I really need a direction and work, for my own sanity! ( and beacause I need the money). I’m good at arty stuff and struggle to be organised. I thougt maybe I could train to do social media marketing as there seem to be a lot of openings, can anyone recommend a course for this?
I can feel myself slipping back into anxiety and depression which is how it’s been since dd was born, so that’s a long time. Did try citalopram, gp suggested sertraline but I think I just need a plan and a direction. Everything I try seems to not work out somehow and I’m getting exhausted. Advice please!