Broke down crying in supermarket and couldn't stop

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This has never happened to me before me. I had a tough night with my newborn and a busy day and I just couldn't stop crying for a good hour. Am I going to have a breakdown ? On the way back from the supermarket I kept having this thought urging me to swerve into oncoming traffic. But it was just a thought. I didn't want to and I would not. But it wasn't nice at all. Every time I had the thought, I said NO out loud.

I'm also just so furious at my sleep deprivation. I'm worried about myself.

Lack of sleep can do strange things to you. Can your partner do the feeds tonight so you can sleep?
the feeling of wanting to swerve is a bit worrying though, I would ring the gp or healthvisitor in the morning just so they can check you are ok

Sleep deprivation is so, so hard, I hope people came to help you, do you have someone with you now? I would speak to your GP/midwife as soon as possible. The early days are really tough

How old is your newborn? As the previous poster said sleep deprivation can affect us in strange ways. You say you were busy, was it anything that could be delegated or put off for a bit?
I would try and rest as much as possible and talk to your midwife or health visitor just to put your mind at rest.
I remember with my first I listened to my MIL too much and was running round like an idiot making sure that DH was taken care of and his needs were met. I was knackered and fixated on cleaning and making everything perfect spoke to my midwife about the situation she was brilliant and made me realise I should be putting myself and baby first.

He's 6 weeks and I really needed to go to register his birth today. I've been waiting for weeks and week and weeks to be able to do it. I couldn't put it off. Other than that, I'm trying to keep on top of things, but it's

Intrusive thoughts are really common after having a baby. Speak to your GP and don't be afraid to get help. Hope you're doing ok.

Please don't be afraid to get help. Your health visitor should be able to sort something out or your GP. You are not alone, so many women feel like this at this point. It does change, it does get much much better. And then they hit teenage years! 😱

Intrusive thoughts are common and crying a lot after you have a baby is a given. X

I’ve had intrusive thoughts like driving into traffic. They’re very common and I’ve certainly never done it!
for me it’s a sign of anxiety and stress and to get help. go and see your Gp Op 💐

Please speak to your GP or HV OP. It's very important for both you and your baby. You don't have to feel like this and there is help out there. They will have seen this before and they will not be there to judge you, just help you. That's what they're for. If you're offered medication, take it. Your health is the most important - if you are not well you cannot tend to a young baby or enjoy motherhood. Best of luck.