Desperate Help needed

[Katrina2]

I've had a tough time for a while. I'm 52 and a few years ago I went on HRT which really helped.
lots of family issues but I was coping.
My mum has been really ill and I thought we were going to lose her a few times. It was so stressful with lots of visits to A & E waiting at times 9 hours to be seen.
She is better but now I seemed to have crashed.
I have 2 teenagers going through exams this month and I need to be strong for them.
I phoned my GP and she prescribed ADs but said sometimes they can make you feel worse before better so I'm frightened to take them.
I wake up every morning shaking and I'm finding it hard to eat.
I've started seeing a therapist and she said I'm burnout but also my husband is emotionally abusive.
I can't leave, I have nowhere to go. I feel like I want to die but I wouldn't do anything because of my children.
im just really not coping with day to day life and just want to sleep or run away. I have nowhere to go and my children need me to be strong, especially at the moment.
what can I do?
I wake up every day thinking I will feel better but it's getting worse

So sorry you are going through this.

My advice would be to take the AD, you will feel better able to deal with everything once they start taking effect and you stop feeling like you want to die, you may even be able to find the strength to put things in place to leave your abusive husband-even though right now it feels like there is no place to go.

I’ve felt that low myself in the past, you will get better. If you need immediate help there is a link here. I hope things improve for you soon
www.nhs.uk/nhs-services/mental-health-services/get-urgent-help-for-mental-health/

I am so sorry that you are feeling like this - please take the AD - I am on these as well I am 53 - peri menopause anxiety - I am starting to feel better - take care of yourself 💐

Just wanted to send you some virtual support op.
I feel the same, except my partner is not emotionally abusive.

My advice, would be to take the anti depressants and re start HRT.
Given time, you may start to feel stronger mentally.

Your kids won't be so dependent on you forever and by then, perhaps you could think about the kind of life you would like.

Do you work at all? Have any savings?

Take care 🌺🌺

Yes I work but only part time. Couldn't face anymore hours at the moment .

I just can't see a way out. I was coping before my mum was ill but now I have this added pressure. Life looks very bleak at the moment.
My childrens lives should be better than this.
I have taken my ad this morning, just hoping they don't make me feel worse.
Husband is getting irritated with me. I just feel like I want to shut myself away from the World

I'm glad you have taken your anti depressant.
Hopefully it will kick in over time and you will feel stronger mentally.

Your children will be fine. They are probably more resilient than you think .

You have a lot to deal with right now and your mum sounds as though she has been through the mill, as you have been too.

Your husband needs to realise that a shift in hormones, combined with family illness etc. is VERY hard to juggle. Can you speak to him about how you feel right now?

Do you have friends to to confide in?

Xx

I don't really have many friends and the ones I do are struggling at the moment.
I actually hate my husband but I can't see a way out.
My children are my World and I hate them seeing me like this.

I hope you are doing ok @Katrina2
in a couple of weeks one you are getting the full effect of the AD things really won’t feel so desperate. Hang in there, if you can’t talk to Friends you could always talk to the Samaritans. They listen rather than offer advice but if you just need an ear it might be a release for you.
www.samaritans.org/?nation=England

mind have useful links too
www.mind.org.uk/information-support/drugs-and-treatments/talking-therapy-and-counselling/about-talking-therapies/

I hope things start feeling brighter for you soon.

Thank you @HelpIneedsomebodywontyouplease
I think I'm going to stop taking them, I can't not sleep. I'm seeing a therapist. But thank you so much for your kind post.