What Can I do?

[Blossom4538]

I’m feeling quite down at the moment.

Adore my child to pieces (SEN). But life is so different to how I thought it would be. I am feeling cross with H a lot and frustrated
that we are unable to do a lot of things individually or as a family.

Im starting to feel detached, sad and resentful…what a horrible Mum I am!

Im tired, envious of what everyone else can do. Life just isn’t what I imagined.

already on anti-depressants. I feel as though I’ve lost myself. I don’t work, have no interests really anymore, other than one I can’t pursue. I’ve even started doubting my sexless marriage and have feelings for someone else, totally inappropriate.

I am such an idiot for feeling so sorry for myself. I feel as though I am
done

So sorry things are so difficult at the moment. Have you been on your dose of AD long? It’s not unusual after a while to find you need a dose increase, or even change of AD altogether, as they can start to be less effective after a while. This can make everything feel so much worse and more difficult to deal with and, with you saying you are feeling quite down, this might be the case so it would be worth speaking to the GP. You could also either self refer for counselling or ask the GP to refer you, having a SN DC is tough and some counselling may help. I hope things improve for you soon

www.nhs.uk/mental-health/talking-therapies-medicine-treatments/talking-therapies-and-counselling/nhs-talking-therapies/