PND or just plain old depression?

[toadstool]

Right, this is a bit complicated, so I'll summarize:
Since the Summer: broke leg in PG, had baby (fine, lovely), relocated somewhere we know nobody, 5-yr-old DD at new school (going very well), was housebound and had carers doing school run etc. until this month.
This month, I'm driving, doing the school run, going to playdates, meeting new mums.

The leg isn't really healing, so I've been advised to consider giving up BF.

My symptoms:

Terrible anxiety over DD2. There was, tragically, a case of SIDS I heard about before Xmas and it sent me over the edge on that front.

Flashbacks to the accident, daily now - originally they were several times a day. It's fading, but the anxiety about having another 'bolt from the blue' is not great.

I've chucked a rotten 'public face' habit I had in my old town, but I'm very nervous of being honest about how I feel here.

Background:

I got depressed when DD1 was about 2 years old, and it only lifted when she was 3. Spent 3 years in counselling, but TBH, it hasn't really helped with long-standing issues.

'Can't be bothered' with new mum groups, I'm returning to work in the Spring (i.e. starting the new job), so I feel pressure to 'get out there'.

Ant advice? I didn't want to take ADs while the leg was healing as frankly it was all about life crises, not mood, but now I'm not so sure. Thanks for reading this far!

I think your anxiety is understandable, maybe you have post traumatic stress disorder? OK, so that might be a bit extreme but really, it understandable to feel the way you do. I wonder if it is anxiety more than depression though. I think you should see a doctor, these things have a habit of building up.

I was told that people can suffer with post anaestesia depresson and anxiety too.

it is shit being a new face i imagine. But you are not alone in that feeling.

I bet your DDs are gorgeous and they are lucky to have a lovely mummy like you. You sound like a very caring person.

don't feel under pressure to do that get out there thing. do it when / if you see fit.
good on ya for getting rid o
f the 'public face' habit, it is a flippin good start!
Maybe you need some time figuring out the 'long standing issues', either yourself or with whatever help you want.
Flashbacks sound like PTSD to me but the anxiety of everything around dd2 more pnd - never mind the lables, both are treatable, you can get through this. If i can (yes well,am doing) so can you. have you found a gp you can talk to in your new area?

Hi toadstool, I'm glad to see you've posted on the September thread, I haven't been posting as much as I used to. I've got over a fairly serious bout of depression. Similar to you, although not involved in the accident myself, I was having many thoughts/flashbacks about the time my DH was knocked off his motorbike. It all seemed to come to a head when I'd had Niamh. I got help straight away and have to say that after being on medication for a few months am feeling TONNES better. My stepfather suffered from severe PTSD and he swears by cognitive behaviour therapy. Please post again to let me know how you're getting on. You've had a tough few months, it's bound to have affected you. x