Feeling really low

[Twentyfourhoursinaday]

I’m really struggling with low mood
Marriage is falling apart , husband drinks too much and not willing to stop , sometimes violent when drunk . I’m drinking more to block everything out.
Friendships have fizzled out , relationship with adult child virtually non existent (we clash) , I’m barely leaving the house no motivation to do anything or go anywhere.
Im just getting up & doing chores but it’s getting harder and harder to function .
I’m spending a lot of time just sitting ,staring in to space .
life is just shit .

Stop drinking, adopt a healthy lifestyle. Get rid of your husband. Sort out your housing & financing. Good luck.

Jeez.

OP, is there anything you can think of that would make you feel relief from your situation? Even just for a minute?

@Watchkeys In reply to your question - no I just feel really low can’t see any future ahead of me & feel like no one gives a shit.

Ha ha if it was that easy I wouldn’t be pouring my heart out to strangers on the internet. I’m just stuck like a needle on a record .

Nobody but you has to give a shit, OP. You're the only one who matters. I think you need to see that regardless of what you perceive to be ahead of you, there is a future. It could be rubbish or it could be great, and the difference is in your hands. You are responsible. You are in charge. This isn't about your rubbish husband or your poor relationship with your adult child. This is about your relationship with you.

What do you like? Simple question. Chocolate? Mountain climbing? Rhythm? Make a list of things you like, for whatever reason. Start there.

@watchkeys I’ve been here before but have managed to get myself back on track .
This time feels different like I’m not going to recover , I can’t face going to seek professional help . I just can’t pull myself out of this hole . I think it’s different because my marriage is over .

There will be lots of help as soon as you ask for it, but you have to take that one small step of asking. If they knew your husband was violent, your friends and adult children would help, no matter how bad you think your relationship with them are. You could go to a refuge, you could call the police.

Don't become another statistic.

Reading your post was like seeing my own life 27 years ago ( apart from the fact that my daughter was only 7 years old at the time). The way I escaped my dispair was to do the things that I suggested to you. It was hard but it can be done. I'm truly empathic for your situation but my empathy does not help you.

i spoke to refuge and women’s aid a few years ago .
They want £350 per week to stay in a refuge . I can’t rent a flat as I don’t work & I can’t work because I feel so depressed I avoid people .
This is my fault because I have been hammered down by the abuse throughout the years I should have stuck up for myself decades ago but now I’m approaching 50 and I feel like my brain can’t take no more.

Sorry if I come across as rude and I really do appreciate you replying .x

Try to do one thing tomorrow. Just one thing. Then when you done that, choose another thing. Each effort you make will move you a little bit further towards climbing out of the hole.
Do you have anyone you could stay with if you left? Friends? Family? Anyone who if they knew what was going on would help?

What one thing will you choose and why? Start with what you can manage.

Thank you I will try .
I dint have any family parents have passed. X