Never felt like this

[Cryingintherain99]

I've struggled with my mental health for several years on and off - mostly anxiety and panic attacks.
However, I have now entered a whole new dimension that has taken me completely by surprise.

I'm 46. Still having regular periods, but definitely hormonal changes.
Over recent months my PMS has gone through the roof - I am constantly tearful and just see everything in a whole different perspective (irrational thoughts/ paranoia).
However, it has now got to the point where I can no longer blame it on PMS, because I'm not at that point in my cycle and I feel horrendous.

I do have a lot going on at the moment - I'm going through a heartbreaking time with one of my children.
It's also one of those times where everything seems to be coming at me at once.
The biggest issue is that I'm just crying constantly. It's just uncontrollable tears.
I have never felt this level of emotion.

I find I just want to spend time on my own, which doesn't help but I constantly worry that I am letting people down or being a burden. It's a really horrible feeling.

Part of me wants to talk to someone, but I just don't feel brave enough to speak to a doctor. It's almost like I feel I deserve to feel like this.

Nothing is going to resolve itself if you don’t speak to your GP.
call, make an appointment and tell them everything that’s happening and exactly how your feeling.

I was a wreck this time last year because of work .. I put my moods down to being 48.
a friend pulled me aside one day after we’d had a massive row and told me I needed help and to call the GP.

i was put on ADs the first lot didn’t help as I couldn’t sleep for the crap thoughts then I was put on different ones and even though they don’t know if it’s depression or being 48 they have helped me function as a person. It’s not a magic wand it’s took from Aug to Jan to get dosage right and now I’m on anxiety pills too. But recently I’ve noticed I can handle situations better, I deal with the issue and move on. No 3am waking up worried and staying awake.

get help to be you

I'm sorry you're feeling so low op
You are definitely in peri menopause territory!
Also, you are only as happy as your unhappiest child ime.
Try and see your gp x