Just can't be bothered

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I'm having CBT currently for anxiety and panic attacks. I need to go out and do my 'homework' and have been planning to go for a walk in the park, but I just can't get motivated at all. It's not just that either. My diet is very poor and I'm very overweight. Every day I'm going to eat properly, every day I don't. There's food at home but I get takeaway. I don't eat the fruit or the yoghurts I've got but I'll buy pop and chocolate and eat those.

I also need to do household tasks but I just sit around all day and then tell myself I'll do them tomorrow. Then rinse and repeat.

I feel like I'm just completely overwhelmed at the moment. Emotionally exhausted. I just can't find the motivation to do anything. Life is pretty shit - I'm long-term single with a chronic illness and unable to work, so I'm poor, bored and lonely, and we've all been through the pandemic, which was a lot. I'm on antidepressants, I've been to counselling for both past trauma and current anxiety issues. I do regular mindfulness practice.

Has anyone else experienced this? What can I do to get myself together and move forward? I can't seem to make even the tiniest change at the moment.

Have you got headphones . Could you download a podcast and listen to this as you walk on your phone. Especially useful if it is self help/motivation. Alternatively some upbeat music.
I am presently building up the energy to go for my run and the only thing which gets me out of the house is my music and podcasts

I don't know whereabouts you are but here it's sunny and warm. Do it! Get out there and focus on how you'll feel you've achieved something when you return. As as fellow 'overwhelmer' I can honestly say that I always get back in a better frame of mind than I had when I went out

Try eating the yogurt or a piece of fruit and half the chocolate.
With the cleaning, break what you’ve got to do into smaller pieces. I do my bathroom one day, dust and hoover upstairs another day, dust and hoover downstairs another. Make it into smaller bits that you can do, you’ll be pleased with yourself when you do it, and may encourage you to do more.

I could have written this! I didn't get out of bed yesterday, had my first shower in days today and am now studying a takeaway menu. And I am sooo overweight 🙄😪