Why does people talking triggery social anxiety?

[GizmoIsSoFluffy]

I have many triggers, but this one has caused 3 anxiety attacks at work this week. I'm trying to work out why in my head so I can come.up with an action plan, but I can't fathom it out.

Basically if I hear other grown ups talking and laughing in a group (i.e. normal, healthy conversation) I get very, very.anxious. I know the are not talking about me, but I just really struggle with it.

Jealousy I expect that I don't know how I join in, but I still don't understand why I have such a reaction.

Any ideas??

If you can access CBT, it would help.

We're you bullied in the past or excluded from a group or something that might be triggering it. Councilling might help get to the route of the issue. I get social anxiety too it sucks!

I have this sometimes. I think for me it maybe reminds be a bit of drunk people or being a teenager i.e. situations when you're surrounded by other people in high spirits who might be cruel or just might not be in control/ think to avoid hurting you (physically or emotionally) iyswim? I'm not really sure what I feel, let alone if I'm expressing it here!

Yes, I was excluded from all friendship groups at school; I was just 'different'.

Thinkig about it i don't people have ever understood me. I don't even understand myself

I was going to ask if you were put on the spot in front of a group. But then I saw your update. Is it bringing back feelings from when you were excluded from groups?

Thankyou everyone, you have helped me realise it is the fear of yet more rejection and the pain it causes me that makes me upset when I hear other groups of adults laughing and talking. I'm nearly 50, you would think I could be over it by now.

Maybe I should just be a hermit.