Hello,
I selfharmed a lot in my early twenties, and its been 5 years or so since I stopped in total.
It feels like the ultimate taboo, and something other people don't really get but I really miss it. Tonight I feel that whirl of emotions that it would have dealt with
I'm safe, not suicidal etc (and would consider myself mentally stable!) But sometimes I miss having an easy coping mechanism
I stopped mostly because my current wife understandably completely hated it and was really alarmed by it/didn't understand it.
So I know that if I did, that it would completely muck up things and be something that would hang over us. Having to feel accountable for my body is hard and i sort of miss when it was mine to do as I wish with.
I don't want to make it a big thing, so I won't. I guess it's like an ex smoker fancying a cigarette
In the hope that you won't respond in alarm,
Does anyone understand that feeling?