I'm so sorry. I will try to keep this as brief as possible. I'm a single sahm to multiple little people. I know now looking back I have suffered with depression and anxiety for many years but never did anything about it. I use to SH pretty badly before I had children but never after, the urge has never left me though unfortunately. I'd make doctor's appointments then cancel them, finally spoke to the doctor about a year ago and was prescribed medication. Unfortunately they made me pile on even more weight and just sweat excessively. I just stopped taking them one day.
I'm fast approaching 40 and have recently been diagnosed with ADHD (inattentive).
Im not a social person and I have no friends. I'm awkward around people as I just can't relax. I'm currently learning how to drive for the sake of my children and am finding it terribly difficult as I can never remember what the instructor is telling me, nothing ever sinks in for me 😫.
Some of my children have SEN my ds has great difficulty controlling his emotions, also finds it impossible to sit still. Up at the crack of dawn, doesn't settle at night. Can have multiple meltdowns a day. It breaks my heart to see any of them upset. DS keeps his siblings awake at night and they can get very upset with the constant noise and being over tired etc.
I know what I need to do to try and improve my health, sleep being one of them! But once all the children are asleep I will end up staying awake 'till the small hours just to get some peace and time to myself. I keep switching off throughout the day and completely zoning out.
This is just the tip of the iceberg really as it will be like reading war and peace if I wrote everything down! I don't know what I'm hoping to achieve from sharing, maybe some one will give me a little golden piece of advice that will completely change my life!
Just a little side note the children are completely fine. Healthy, happy, safe and more importantly loved more than anything. If I didn't have them I wouldn't be here. I know this post is all over the place and I really appreciate everyone who has taken the time to get to the end.