Depressed, life falling apart.

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I'm so down, I'm thinking of going to see a doctor.

I've recently been made redundant (job ending end of summer). I've been a sahm for 3 years as we had twins and childcare was a struggle. Twins were also a struggle, add lockdown on top of that and it's been nearly impossible. Kids are starting school full time in September it's breaking my heart.

People don't understand when I tell them that I'm heartbroken.

I've not been wanting to get out of bed. Crying. Feeling so low that I'd just lie on the sofa and stare into space. Angry also.

I've had several job rejections also. I feel like my life is falling apart in someway.

Right idea seeing a doctor , you've had a lot to cope with !

Redundancy is hard , rejections hard to handle but it's quite normal to have loads of rejections - redundancy and rejection are not a reflection of you or a personal failing ( just feels that way at the time )

I think seeing a doctor is the way forward,

Once you are feeling a bit more balanced the world will feel like a different place.

You will get the job that is right for you.

Take care x

That sounds like a lot to deal with within a couple of years. I can understand why you don't want to get out of bed and crying.

Job hunting is brutal, and if you are already mentally low then it could be the final straw to break the camel's back.

No advice I'm afraid, but I wish you luck in your job search and a hug to get you up and ready to enjoy this glorious sunny day :)

I have covid now too 🙈

Oh dear - you are having a bad time - hope it's mild , you get well looked after abs feel better soon

I was feeling like this last year (different causes in my life to you but similar in that it had been a few difficult situations/a few blows). The not being able to get out of bed thing was the same for me, it was so hard and I was exhausted very easily. I did go to the doctor as I knew I was starting to struggle to function. I was put on anti depressants and they worked for me. I also had CBT.

I agree you need to go to doctors before it gets any worse. I had no idea how debilitating depression was until it happened to me. I was shocked - it’s like having a physical illness.

Once you start coming out of the depression you might see things in a different light. I found before I was treated I’d started seeing everything as either scary or awful. Now I don’t as much. For example, the twins starting nursery - you might start seeing it in a good way, and feel excited for them and think of the little friends they will make etc and how much they will likely benefit and enjoy it.

You need to take care of yourself until you start feeling better and prioritise some of the things that make you feel calm until then (and stay away from any alcohol as that makes everything worse) take care

I went to the doctors and being off for a week even has done wonders to my mental health. Just needed a break.