Anxiety is raging!! Help

[MoreKidsThanHotDinners]

As title my anxiety is literally destroying my life.
Had a colposcopy on Tuesday where they took 2 biopsies as smear came back Low-grade dyskaryosis and positive hpv now I'm just convincing myself I'm dying of cancer.
I can't function, I can't see a way through this fog.
I'm feeling so alone even tho I've amazing support.
I just feel like I wanna run away from life.
I can't deal with these horrible thoughts consuming my brain.
Sorry to turn to strangers and burden people I just need some hugs and positive stories.

Anxiety consumes me too but mine is fixated on different things and not health related at the moment. I totally get that all consuming and wanting to run away from life feeling. sorry I'm no help but I just want you to know your not the only one to feel this way. As awful as it sounds I have times when I feel I can't wait for my life to be over so I don't have to live this way anymore as its exhausting and totally ruins my and my families (for putting up with me!) quality of life. I've tried meds, cbt but nothing helps really. distraction from your thoughts is probably the best thing. If you are well enough could you go out for a walk maybe with a friend or find an activity to distract your mind? hope all turns out to be well for you but the wording of your smear as low grade sounds like all will be fine. They found something wrong on my friends smear about 20 years ago she had a bit of lazer treatment and all was fine and she went on to have 3 dcs and had never had issues since. That was 20 years ago and treatments have progressed even further since then. Honestly I think all will be fine and they would have told you if there was anything to be overly concerned about, the further tests/treatment you have will just be precautionary.

I meant colopscopy (can't spell it sorry) not smear!

How are you feeling OP?