Worry and skin

[Elliejane]

Hi

I not sure why I am posting on here again to be honest but it sometimes helps to even just write it down. I have been posting on and off for a number of years . I get periods of months sometimes even a year when I don't suffer then I get a trigger and it all comes back. My trigger this time was a womb scare in December which turnout to be begign . However ever since December I have been on full alert to my body and also my family as well. I feel like one of those meerkats constantly looking for a threat every hour ever day.

About a month ago I got a strange skin thing like where spots appeared for no reason that were really itchy. I got a cream from gp which I had to apply all over my body 4 times a day. The cream worked and gradually I stopped getting any more. However when I was applying the cream one time I noticed a new mark near my knee that I never seen before . It was light brown , reasonable size, irregular border and not symmetrical . I phoned to book a gp to check it and got one today. When waiting for the appointment I also noticed a small nodule on my nose like a pimple but it is not a pimple. On googling I think it looks like a bcc so really worried but I don't understand why 2 different types of things have just appeared now .

I saw the gp today hoping she would say both were fine and no action needed but for both spots she said she wanted me to be referred to see a dermatologist. I was so upset and broke down in surgery.

I just had my first day off work today in 2022 and was looking forward to a week with my family and feel this it totally ruining it. My husband and I are not getting on well at all just now and he struggles to cope with me when I like this as well.

I also just so tired of feeling this way and kinda of place that I not sure if I can carry on anymore . It is ruining my life now . I can honest say since Dec I not had one day I not been worrying or anything. I was 50 last week and also feel a lot of it is connected to my hormones.

I came off my medication last August as I did not feel it was helping so that is also worrying me as I not sure if I should try another or not . I feel today that I have sort of given up on myself and just can't manage anymore . I don't feel anxious now just very sad and like it there any point anymore.

Anyway thanks for listening .

Ellie

It’s a month on since I posted this and I feel no better . I am scared . Can anyone help

No one ?

Hi Ellie, just reaching out to say that the doctor has done the right thing to refer you for a 2nd opinion most likely to turn out to be nothing. I have had a few moles removed which turned out to be ok.

speak to your gp about anxiety and also maybe write hubby a letter to express how your feeling ?

Thank you so much for replying . I thought no one cared this means a lot to me . You are a very kind person . X

Please don’t panic. I ended up with a referral due to odd skin issue. Even had a tiny biopsy as they thought it may be lupus. Was eczema. 🤦‍♀️ The specialists really are the best ones to help.
On the MH side I take medication. It’s taken me a long time to find the right one. Worth speaking to GP about trying a different med.

Sorry to hear you are faced with this worry op.

Just to say, I have a similar thing going on whereby my health anxiety has flared and I'm now focusing on my skin (and also dcs). I've booked in with the GP to check my back etc. I am only a couple of years younger than you but I have always suffered with health anxiety (which flares up at times). I can relate to you always being on the lookout - it is exhausting. I have had a succession of health scares involving referrals including a hysteroscopy on my womb recently. The peri-menopause is making things worse by presenting so many symptoms. This year I feel I have done nothing but go back and forth to the GP/dentist/hospital for checks, appointments and treatment. It is exhausting and I totally understand what you have written.

Thank you to you all who have replied. I feel so very low this week and struggling to even function . I just can’t imagine feeling happy again which is so selfish with all the troubles and sadness in world .

It isn’t selfish in the slightest. You can feel happy again. CBT and medication brought me back from the lowest I have ever felt. You deserve to be well. You deserve to be happy. Hang on in there. 💐

Sorry to hear you are feeling this way.
Some threads don't get picked up on straight away so please don't be disheartened by a first lack of response.
I also understand the exhaustion of worry about health and being on alert.
I have had a few moles and a cyst removed before that I was worried about but all were ok after biopsy.
Do you have your appiontment yet?
I find yoga really helped me sometimes with my mental health, although sometimes I was even too exhausted to do that.

Hi
thanks for replying . I feel better as the day goes on . The mornings are the absolute worst . I started counselling today but it was not straightforward as technology did not work so ended up just a call on my phone .
I have had counselling before for health anxiety and found a great counsellor but sadly she left to a new role . So time will tell with this new lady .

I did have appt and one he is fine with but one my nose he wants to recheck later which is worrying me again .

My anxiety used to be only health but in 2022 it’s moved to others non health issues too . I am 50 and I wondering if a lot is peri menopause related . I said to my gp and she said it could be making it worse but as I have a history of health anxiety she thinks a ssri again would be best .

I just too anxious to take one . Which sounds stupid .

appreciate everyone replies a lot

ellie

It’s not stupid. I felt the same. Unfortunately the anxiety you need to take the pills for can make it hard to take them. Prozac has been awesome for me.