Hey all.
I’ve recently started having horrific intrusive thoughts, I was attacked last year and thought I had processed it all. I left my job, started a new one, and had a lot of stress. Anyway, I woke up one morning and I wanted to jump off my balcony. Never had them feelings before and the urge to do it was so strong. Suicidal thoughts filled me with terror and urges to harm others around me was taking every moment of my day up.
Doctor started me on 50mg sertraline, was on for 4 weeks and seemed to be levelling out a little, the thoughts stopped being so intense. They upped me to 100mg and I’ve been completely detached from myself, don’t know who I am anymore and 3 weeks in the thoughts have come back. Is this normal? Has anyone experienced this and come through it? My therapist is telling me I need to accept the thoughts are there rather than fight them, but it’s difficult when your mind is telling you you want to die when you know you don’t.