Hi all,
Ive posted on here a lot lately and have found it to be a massive help helping from others who's experienced similar difficulties.
My mental health has been really bad for over a year and a half, since I had my second child. I was diagnosed with a very aggitsted form of Pnd.
Long story, I tried various ssri's and mirtazapine which all sent me loopy or to a a very dark place.
Ive been kind of just keeping my head above water without drugs wjrh lots of family support, for the last few months. But sleep and anxiety, panic and derealization is still awful.
When I get my period my mental health crashes. Yesterday, day 1 of my cycle I tried to hurt myself. I was in a state of complete aggitation, hopelessness and anxiety. I felt insane.
I called the crisis team who told my psychiatrist.
She wants me to start of 70mg lofepramine ASAP. She thinks I'll do better on a tryclic but this is the one she feels comfortable prescribing as it's less harmful in a overdose than other tryclics.
She wants me either monitored by the crisis team at home or to go in as a voluntary in-patient to hospital to try and get meds sorted out. For a week or two.
Yesterday I was wishing to be in hospital. Today, now it's a possible reality, I'm petrified.
Sorry for the length of this post. I'm wondering how people got on with lofepramine (good stories from anyone else who's illness made them feel wired all the time!) and if anyone has gone in to hospital for similar reasons?
I don't have to go in. I don't know what to do for the best! I'd miss my two young kids and husband so so much. And I suppose i also can't believe it's come to this.