I just want to give up

[Mar2022]

I just don't have the energy to go on.

I'm failing at everything and feel like it's all crumbling down around me. My husband doesn't seem to give a shit about me an is prioritising himself because his work is stressful at the moment (read as leaving me to sort all the shit he said he would help with).
I can't stop crying.

Work is overwhelming.
I keep forgetting things and letting people down. I am getting a cleaner to try and help bleep on top of some of it but I'm anxious about that so wondering if it's even worth it.

I'm now lying in bed crying because I can't face going down stairs to deal with tidying/ironing/ making lunches.

I'm just going to have to suck it up and try and get through it.

I do wonder what happens if I don't get out of bed. I'm having dark thoughts and I don't know what to do.

Get the cleaner.

Draw up an agreement with your H about what you need him to do.

I hear you OP but you matter, you matter more than your fucking To Do list, don’t let it crush you.

Do not tidy, do not iron. Lunches, maybe. Or maybe they can wait until tomorrow morning.

Sending strength

That sounds awful, @Mar2022. Can you sign yourself off sick for a week, book a GP appointment and reassess?

Work are really short staffed if I go off sick as well then it puts pressure on my colleagues and I don't want to do that unless I really have to.

I think writing down what DH needs to do will help. A major part of what I'm struggling with is keeping on top of everything because stuff changes so just feels like another job to add to my to do list. I will make a list tomorrow when hopefully my head is a bit clearer.

I hope you feel better soon. It sounds as if you are having a difficult time at work and on top of that you don’t feel that your husband really cares about you. So it’s not surprising that you are feeling low. In this state other things can become overwhelming. I think other people are right about going to see your GP A persons mental health can sometimes be tipped over by the simplest things

Sending you a massive hug. Hold on xx💐