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Can't stop thinking about taking an overdose

17 replies

Olimar · 05/04/2022 17:55

I'm not suicidal, I don't want to die. I just can't stop thinking about doing it. I just can't cope with life like this anymore.

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SnowyMouse · 05/04/2022 18:04

Oh hugs @Olimar . I'm sorry you're struggling to cope. Do you have anyone in RL you can tell?

cantthinkofabetterusername · 05/04/2022 18:05

Hi OP
Please reach out to someone in real life. What is it about life you can't cope with?

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Olimar · 05/04/2022 18:27

I told my LP yesterday and cried in front of my mum and social worker today but couldn't find the words to say what's wrong. I don't even know what's wrong with me. I just feel like I can't do life anymore. Overdose is the only thing I can think about.

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Tomselleckhaskindeyes · 05/04/2022 18:32

I felt like this when i had bad anxiety. I just didn't want to feel anxious anymore and it felt easier not to be here. Again i didn't want to die i just didn't want to worry. Tbh citalopram and a some CBT solved it.

Notanotherwindow · 05/04/2022 19:12

Take it from me its a bad idea whether you want to die or not. Most people who overdose, don't die, at least not straight away, just give themselves liver or kidney failure. Fucking horrible way to love and an even worse way to die.

Do you have a therapist or counsellor you could reach out to? Or write your social worker a note like you have here? You seem pretty articulate in writing. I'm like that too. I write letters to my therapist if I can't talk about something.

JengaTower · 05/04/2022 19:25

The Samaritans are great to talk things through with try giving them a call.

I've called them a couple of times over the years when things have been a bit overwhelming and I was always pleasantly surprised at how warm and friendly they are and not at all sort of preachy or therapy like.

I advise giving them a go.

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Olimar · 09/04/2022 22:13

I've tried talking to people,, in real life and on helplines. It hasn't helped, I still have the thoughts about overdose. I've already taken more than I should tonight plus alcohol. I know it's wrong for all the reasons given, but I can't stop it anymore.

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Loginmystery · 09/04/2022 22:25

I’m here if you want to talk.
Drink lots of water and speak to people.

Difficult times pass. Even though you think you won’t feel better it’s just a state of mind. You can get through it.

shivermetimbers77 · 09/04/2022 22:25

OP, is there anyone there living with you? Can you go to them now and tell them about how strong the thoughts are tonight ? Or If not can you call someone? Your mum, a friend, anyone? Also, while you are having these intrusive thoughts can you make sure someone else takes care of your medicine for you, or put them somewhere you can’t access them? . You’ve said you don’t want to die, which is great, hang on to that thought, but It sounds like you need lots of support right now to get through this. As others have said, the Samaritans can be great to help in these crisis moments 116 123.

Namenic · 09/04/2022 22:27

If you are feeling at the end of your tether go to a&e. They may be able to connect you with the mental health crisis team. Have you seen your gp about this?

Namenic · 09/04/2022 22:29

What and how much have you taken? It would be sensible to go to a&e. There are always people there - they can check you out and connect you with mental health services.

Loginmystery · 09/04/2022 22:30

If you are alone have you thought about going to A&E and explaining how you’re feeling?
And as the previous poster suggested if you’re with others go to them and tell them how you are feeling.

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Olimar · 09/04/2022 22:35

I don't want to go to A&E, not on a Saturday night especially. I already have a mental health team and input from the crisis team in the past.

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LoveSpringDaffs · 09/04/2022 22:35

(((HUG)))

Stop drinking & don't take anything else!

Tell us about yourself. Anything. Do you have kids? How far away does your mum live? Is there anyone else in the house with you?

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FlissMumsnet · 09/04/2022 22:38

Hi Olimar,

We're so very sorry to hear how tough life is right now.

We’re very sorry to say we don’t allow threads we don't allow threads which detail methods of suicide on Mumsnet, so we had to take it down.

Real life help is the best way to seek some support so we wonder whether you'd like to look at the below.

Some further support links:

NHS: Where to get urgent help for mental health
NHS: Looking after your mental health
MIND: Coping with mental health problems during coronavirus

CALM: The Campaign Against Living Miserably
NHS: Help for suicidal thoughts

Very best wishes from MNHQ.
We hope life looks a lot brighter for you soon

Namenic · 09/04/2022 22:47

Do you have anyone with you or who you can stay with? I’m sorry you are going through a v tough time.

EmeraldShamrock1 · 09/04/2022 23:35

It's the depression causing your mind to wander into dangerous territory.

Don't do it.

It won't help, it'll impact you and other people who become involved in saving you, you'll hurt loved ones just to satisfy a nasty destructive arse in your head known as depression.

I hope you are okay and get some kind helpful support.

Life is always changing, with change comes improvement.

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