I can't do it. Every day is physical, mental, and emotional pain. Everything takes ten times as long as it should. I have nothing to live for. No friends, no hobbies. I don't enjoy anything. I don't have kids or a partner. The only person I talk to is my mum. I shouldn't rely on her so much at 27 years old and feel like I take over her life. I'm vile and disgusting and repulsive. Constantly tugging and pulling at my clothes trying to hide my body. I'm so ugly. I'm not just saying that. I have a naturally ugly face. I have facial tics which I've had my whole life. They have created lines in my face which distress me every day. I can't stop ticcing. People make fun of me. Actual grown adults. Stare at me. I feel like collapsing. I wish I would get ill and this would all go away. Seen doctors, therapists, physiatrists, physiologists you name it. Been on every medication under the sun. No one cares. I get dismissed. Its not that bad, they say. Because I manage to work full time they think that means I cope. Except I don't because I owe work so many hours. And the work I produce is shite. Help me please. I can't carry on.