I don't know how to start this post or what to say and it might seem very muddled to you all. For a very long time, since I was only 6-7 years old, I've had a feeling like I'm different, not like an out of body experience, just an internal feeling (a second sight or second sense) if that makes any sense. I'm now 61 and today I've had the results for the autism tests I had a while ago and my average results over the tests was 57/68, that relates to 83.4% over all 10 tests. Nothing was really said to me following the outcome, I was ust told I'd be contacted in the near future. I was OK at the time, but I'm now feeling insecure, nervous and alone.
Much of what I've gone through today is blazingly obvious, but for some reason, I cannot get to grips with it. I can remember dates and events of no significance, I can remember every phone number of importance when I worked for a company at, with many contacts and the registrations and phone numbers of the 300 vehicles we had on the road, I can remember car registrations, details of the most trivial things, but I cannot recall my parents birth and deaths, my childrens birthdays or anything that should be important. It's like my life has no significance. I know it's a trait of the condition, but why is it bothering me now, when I've "managed" OK for the previous 61 years of my life?