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Why is it so hard??

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WaiveringKate · 14/03/2022 14:50

I feel like I've had no 'luck' in my life. I hate my job. Most jobs I've had I've hated. Simply because I never 'fit in'. I've been in this role a year and still can't get my head around it. I can't talk to my manager because he talked me into sleeping with him when I was at a very low point and signed off with depression. Looking back it makes me feel sick. He ghosted me afterwards and I still have to work for him.

I honestly thought things would be different this time. I worked hard to get this job and it's the best paying job I've ever had. But everyone in my team are much younger than me and it's so clique-y. No one speaks to me and if I try and have a conversation they look at my like I'm shit

To be honest I feel like I'm shit. I must be, I was used for sex by my own manager. Who now tries to avoid me at all costs and doesn't acknowledge me in team meetings

I'm thankfully having counselling but it isn't going so well so far

I just never fit in. I'm a joke. The cliques and bitchiness happens to be in every job.
I'm sorry I'm just ranting. 😔

OP posts:
WaiveringKate · 14/03/2022 14:50

I feel like I'm constantly in fight or flight mode now ..

OP posts:
NoraNoasaurus · 16/03/2022 21:47

I'm so sorry to hear this - I feel your manager abused you, to be honest. Do you think so?

I'm not surprised you don't feel in any way settled in your job with that having over you.

Is there any way you could retrain to do something entirely different? Take up something that boosts confidence, such as a martial art?

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