For most of my life, I have suffered depression anxiety and PTSD due to abuse as a child. I have had several breakdowns including a spell in a psychiatric hospital after losing a baby conceived in rape the last breakdown was about 4 years ago when I just totally lost it but the GP got me through it mainly through diazepam and talking.
for the last 18 months, my partner has been through a lot including his mum dying and his father going into a home after several traumatic incidents. I will admit our relationship has been rocky and at one time I did think we would split but we seem to have got back on track.
I just wanted to give a background but also I have started a yarn and haberdashery stall in the market which is being a great success and I really enjoy it.
I am way overweight and have recently started SW with my partner most of the time I fail I never feel full up and often have diarrhoea but just lately the last week I have had stomach ache sort of gastric reflex and it is making me panicky eating I am taking is medicines and gastric reflux tablets which normally work but not this time.
I feel a bit panicky at the market today was having a great time laughing then felt all shaky and panicky. I am on tablets I hate waking up in the morning and then feel a bit sick and panicky. I am terrified of having another breakdown I don't want to have one with the market going so well as I have no one to take my place and do enjoy it so much. why have I started feeling like this? I have not missed any pills I take propranolol venlafaxine and one other I cant remember.
my sleep has been crap for a couple of years rarely get more than 4 hours of sleep a night which I have had tablets for including some antipsychotics recently but the next day I felt like a zombie so had to stop them I just could not function. is this something that has caused the problem of the antipsychotics I mean? I did speak to the GP a while back and he said he was reluctant to change my pills as they seem a good balance.
I know worrying is not helping but is there anything I can do to level myself out again please I have tried to deep breathe etc but it's like I feel I am crashign and cant cope. i just feel lost please help