I’m not sure why I’m posting I’m not expecting sympathy just maybe somewhere to vent! My mental health has always been fine maybe a bit anxious at times but nothing alarming. Since the start of the pandemic I feel like it’s just taken a massive battering. I had a weird time in August where I was very stressed due to changing jobs and was convinced my partner was being off and was going to break up with me etc. I thought it was getting back to normal apart from anxiety attacks when my partner goes out and I don’t hear from him for a while (I was never like this 2years ago) or my family don’t message me back for a while, I start getting palpitations/feeling sick and thinking the worse. With what is now going on in the world I feel like it’s come back full force I can feel my body being in a fight/flight mode palpitations, not being able to eat, mind racing etc. I’ve found myself now restricting food as it feels like it’s the only thing I can control while the world spins out around me. I have literally lost all motivation to plan for the future, I’m 34 I want kids and I’m like what’s the point now the world is bloody awful. We are doing our house up and I’m like what’s the point in it. I’m hoping it’s a slump and that maybe when we get a bit more certain with what’s going On it will ease. I am well aware my situation is not comparable to what is happening to others right now which annoys me even more that I’m doing this!