Mums,
Has anyone has a traumatic birth (maybe during the pandemic) and struggling to accept what happened?
I’m 27yo and I’m a first time mum to a 21 month old. My pregnancy was far from normal and quite lonely. Not what I thought it would ever be. My birth… was a mess, I won’t bore you all with too much detail but it wasn’t the experience I had imagined (not in a silly way, I knew it wasn’t going to be all sunshine and rainbows). 7 months after birth I was diagnosed with post natal depression and anxiety (I have always had anxiety but never received much help professionally but had a lot of family and friend support so I managed) my daughter was born in June 2020 so peak of the pandemic. I didn’t get much support or help towards the end of my pregnancy and the beginning of becoming a mum due to this. I was alone for 90% of my labour, belittled and ignored by professionals. I’ve spoken with birth after thoughts, had numerous counselling sessions and hypnotherapy sessions and together they have come to the conclusion that along side the postnatal depression and anxiety I may have a slight post traumatic stress thing going on too. This has opened my eyes a lot! What I went through wasn’t normal and wasn’t acceptable but I’m struggling to deal with the fact that there’s nothing… nothing I can do about it. I would just love to know that I’m not alone and share my story in more detail with mums that can relate and maybe we can help each other.