Hi everyone.. I've been on citalopram 40mg for years now, I have got BPD and GAD.. so when I got pregnant almost 2 years ago I went to my psychiatrist to make sure that it was safe for my baby to continue using this medication.. At this point my mental health also dropped to an all time low, I didn't even get out of bed, I was in my first trimester.. My psychiatrist was very concerned and assured me it would be safe for my baby and even wanted to up the dose if I wasn't feeling better in next month.. But luckily my mental health improved during the second trimester.. I had such peace of mind that staying on the medication would not affect my baby and the rest of my pregnancy went very well..
My daughter was born via c-section which was a very fortunate decision as her umbilical cord was wrapped around her head 3 times and it would have been a very difficult natural birth.. When she was around 3 months my mother in law noticed she had very little eye contact and didn't really smile.. I had no idea what was normal in babies and still don't, she is now 20 months and a lot has improved.. I still have my concerns that she might be on the autism spectrum and can't shake the feeling that I might have caused this.. Not sure what I want from this post, I guess I just want to get this burdened feeling of guilt off my chest.. Thank you for reading..