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Just need a space to get it out really

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SeriouslyStrugglingSusan · 16/02/2022 17:20

I'm so tired and I'm so sad.
I cannot be bothered any more
I feel like such a failure in every sense.
If I spin one plate the other plates smash.
I can't cope with it all.
All I do is run around in a giant mess looking awful, feeling awful.
I'm so tired I just want to not be me..
Just for a few hours.
Or just sleep uninterrupted quality sleep
I can't remember how that feels any more.
I don't want antidepressants they don't work and they make me fatter and I'm already clinically obese. I can't be bothered any more if this is life then you can stick it. I just want to be the woman who went to bed for a year.

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Cleanbedlinen12 · 17/02/2022 08:01

Big hug op. Maybe tell your gp? If it helps, I know how you feel! 💐

SeriouslyStrugglingSusan · 17/02/2022 08:30

I'll see how I go this week then I'll make the call I think. Anti-depressants don't work for me. I wish to hell they did as it would be a problem easily solved. I just balloon in weight and I can't put any more weight on. Thanks for posting @Cleanbedlinen12 I really appreciate it.

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Zillamop · 17/02/2022 08:32

Sorry to hear you're having a rough time. Have you tried more than one antidepressant?

Don't worry about your weight at the moment. Better to be a larger person without depression than a slightly slimmer version with poor mental health.

tiredmummy198 · 17/02/2022 08:33

I'm sorry you are feeling like this OP Daffodil

There are other treatments available CBT etc if you don't want to take medication. Where I live you can self refer to them.

Sending you a virtual hug xx

Mydogneedsabath · 17/02/2022 12:43

It’s hell isnt it, going to bed isn’t the answer ( I can and do often🙁) but it’s just all still there.
No answers no help, but I hear you x

JustMsInvisible · 17/02/2022 12:56

Why wait a week? Why not call gp now?

FumingFredericka · 17/02/2022 13:19

Sorry you are feeling this way op. You sound overwhelmed.

We all fail and fail often. I'd go as far as saying that failure is essential to learning. It tells us we have taken on too much. Or we need help. Or we need to change the way things are structured or how we approach them. And we often judge ourselves much more harshly than others would.

Can you try and pinpoint the one significant thing that is making life most hard for you ATM? And would make the most difference to you if it changed?

Is it sleep? Or your weight perhaps?
Then could you take one small step towards tackling one tiny aspect of that one thing?
Break it down in to very small gradual steps.

We all have times when we are brought to our knees by everything being hard all at once. And it's ok to take your time, put everything else aside, and just focus on one part of one issue to try and improve things for yourself, very gently, one step at a time.

If a close friend of yours was experiencing the same issues, how would you advise them to proceed?

Do you have any RL support? Friends or family? Could you talk to them and ask for help? It's so hard to ask for help but if you ask for something specific like "I am desperate for sleep, would you mind baby-sitting for one afternoon so I can catch up? " then people are often happy to oblige. But that depends on you being open about what is troubling you and how they can help.

Or if it's weight, don't think about it too much, or put too much pressure on yourself, just start by going out for a 15 minute walk, and then swap out one sweet treat in favour of an apple. Start slowly.

Good luck op. Hang in there. I hope you can find a path through all of the problems Flowers

SeriouslyStrugglingSusan · 18/02/2022 18:21

Appreciate all the replies everyone.
I've been at work so I haven't replied.
I know I need to take it all a step at a time but the swimming through treacle every day is not fun.

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Fruitlesscalisthenics · 18/02/2022 18:58

I'm sure it's not easy op Flowers

DSGR · 18/02/2022 19:14

I just want to send you a virtual hug and say please speak to your GP. Are there other anti-ds you can try? Do you have children and is there anyone who can have them while you get some uninterrupted sleep?

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