I've had such an awful day-I just cannot stop negative thoughts coming into my mind. Bit of background-smear test nearly 2 weeks ago and the nurse spotted a lesion of some sort which she said needed looking at. I was quite calm and for a few blissful days not worried. However, while googling (yeah..I know) for turnaround times for screening results, I kind of ended up down the rabbit hole of cervical cancer and you can guess the rest..
My results have come back negative but my joy was short lived as the letter that accompanied the result was not very reassuring saying no screening is 100%, you can still get CC between tests. I had some bleeding a couple of years ago which was checked out by the GP but I was not referred to Gyne as she deemed me low risk. I am now in a state of terror that that was the beginning of my cancer starting and it has now spread. More back ground lost DF and Dsis to cancer, both diagnosed late so I know why I have this HA, just not how to cope!
Writing it down does make it sound ludicrous but I can't stop these negative thoughts. I've signed up for CBT with the NHS but apparently it is a long wait. I don't want to go back to the GP as although very good, mine does not have the best bedside manner! I'm feeling so desperate and not sure how I will get through the next few weeks until I get an appointment for my referral. Any advice or handhold from those who know how truly awful this is would be very welcome.