I wanted to do a positive post.
I’ve been on here on and off a lot over the years. I’ve been in hospital a couple of times in the last decade, years with the mental health team, crisis team etc. Long term sick, on PIP, in despair. Tried and failed several times to end it all.
But somehow…I’ve been working full time for over a year. I like my job. Only a few days sick (work know I have “vulnerabilities”. I’ve come off 2 meds and have reduced a 3rd. The kids are ok (single mum).
Life isn’t perfect, I still have bad periods and really awful thoughts, and sometimes panic attacks but I seem to have avoided spending prolonged periods of time in the abyss. Equally, there are things I enjoy and things I find fun out of those dark periods. Probably people who hadn’t been in my position would think my mental health is a bit shit but I’ve accepted I’m probably never going to be “normal” and that’s ok.
I think there is so much pressure to be cured and hey life is 100% great and on top of things and I’m happy and in love and oh yes I’m Wonder Woman, but actually, does it? Isn’t it ok for things, and for ourselves, to just be “good enough”?
To all those struggling, hope things improve soon xx