Feeling stupidly sad tonight.

[Lemonsandlemonade]

I know I need to get a grip but am feeling incredibly overwhelmed.

I start back in work full time (I do 4 days now) soon. DS will be 9 months old. I miss him so much but I know me working helps to pay for fun things.

DB has told me he has an oncology appointment very soon. After a biopsy. I’m terrified it’s bad news. DM is in dark and is starting to get back to some form of normal after loosing my DDad nearly two years ago. This will hit her like a truck. I feel awful as DB told me before DM.

I know this is silly beyond but DH has told me of all the time he has booked off over summer holiday to co inside with the time I’m having off as part of my job. ( I work term time only). I am a bit gutted I love spending time with my DS and DH but was very much looking forward to pottering about with DS spending Mum and Son time.

I know I’m being silly but I am quite down.

Sorry to hear it's all piling up for you. Do you actually know what your DB's appointment is to discuss? My DSis has a malignant skin cancer diagnosed and removed a couple of years after we lost my dad to cancer. DM did take it very badly and was convinced she was going to die - she was no support at all to DSIs and with hindsight DSis would have been better off not telling her anything at all. Malignant mole was removed in day surgery and DSis is completely fine now btw. I'd recommend talking to your DB and finding out what the situation is - worrying about the unknown is always worse than knowing that you're up against.

And know what you mean about liking time at home with just your and DS. Some of my fondest memories of DS being little are when my (now) ex had finally found a job and it was just me and DS alone. How to broach that with your DP I'm not so sure! Or maybe you could both take turns to have a bit of time off on your own (visit DB?) and let the other have some one to one time with DS?