Iv had a really bad couple of months lately , I suffer with health anxiety ... that's my main issue . But that aside , me and my partner argue every single day . The arguments get bad , worse each time . My partner isn't supportive in the way I need him to be , he doesn't understand my health anxiety . He's tired to be supportive but I think he's just fed up now .
Anyway. Im so so depressed . I don't want to get out of bed in a Morning , soon as I'm awake I just think about going to bed . I dread every single day , but I'm great full to be here .
Iv got 1 year old and 3 year old , im really struggling with them . I feel like I'm not doing enough or I'm sometimes shouting and I feel bad :( . I'm constantly saying to my partner I dont want them and I want to give them up ( in my head I really don't want that at all ) I don't no why I say it because that's not what I want , I love them and couldn't imagine life without them . But oh my gosh I'm not enjoying life at all and I really want too , I want to get out this hole I'm in
Not really sure what to get from this post , maybe someone to talk too and advice x
I drink wine at night once the kids are in bed . It helps with unitll the next day and I'm back to square one . I missed my therapy session last night due to arguing with my partner 