Hi - please excuse the long message
Late 2016 I had a breakdown following a serious case of insomnia that lasted about 3 months, ending in me being hospitalised for 3 weeks. I managed to stop taking medication in 2017 but in August of 2017 I started to suffer with insomnia again. I went to the doctors and he prescribed 15mg Mirtazapine which I have been taking ever since. It worked from day one, it was like a miracle, I slept and felt refreshed and so much calmer. Since then I have had the odd night where I haven't been able to sleep, this results in me panicking and feeling anxious all the next day that I won't be able to sleep but it usually just rectifies itself. However, in November 2021 just a week before my 50th birthday, I had a rough night where I woke at 2.30 am and couldn't get back to sleep, I then didn't sleep at all for the next two nights. I was then anxious about not sleeping and anxious about being ill as we were going away for my 50th birthday. I rang the doctor that day and he suggested I upped the Mirtazapine to 30mg and gave me 14 2mg Diazepam tablets to take if I needed them. I took the 30mg that night and 1 Diazepam, I slept through but did feel jittery the next day, I put this down to the Diazepam. I took the 30mg for the next few nights but then reduced this back down to 15mg as my normal sleep pattern returned, mainly due to the fact that I have read so many things on the internet about higher doses of Mirtazapine not working as well for insomnia. Anyway to cut a long story short, I couldn't get to sleep on Saturday night so I took one 2mg Diazepam, I did get to sleep, not a great nights sleep but I felt spaced out the next day. Sunday night I couldn't get to sleep so I cut a tablet in half and so had 1mg Diazepam, and the same Monday night. I have slept about five hours the last two nights. I think what I am trying to ask really is do you think if I increase my Mirtazapine back up to 30mg a night this will help. I do not want to keep taking the Diazepam, it scares me to be honest, and I worry that even on such a low dose over the last three nights I might have issues if I don't take it. I have read so many things about the higher dose of Mirtazapine not working as well for sleep, but this is what the doctor suggested. I also wanted to ask other people who do take Mirtazapine for sleep - how long before bed do you take it? If I do take 30mg tonight should I take one an hour before bed then take another when I get into bed or take them both at the same time? For example - last night I took 15mg at about 9.30 and I kept nodding off on the sofa, I went to bed about 10.30 but then couldn't nod off again, so I ended up taking the 1mg Diazepam at about midnight then went to sleep till about 5.00 am, it might sound daft but I don't feel refreshed as I worry it is just the Diazepam that made me sleep rather than the Mirtazapine. I normally feel great after just taking the Mirtazapine. I am so sorry for such a long post but I find it hard to talk to anyone about this stuff, I just feel people don't get it when you say you can't sleep