What will happen if I'm honest about how I feel?

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I've been taking antidepressants for just over a year and have been in counselling since the end of last year. Originally it was just depression and more recently I've been experiencing anxiety as well. In the last month to six weeks I've been a bit scared about some thoughts I'm having - I'm not sure if they count as suicidal thoughts because I have no intention or plan to do anything and I want to get better and live my life. But they're frightening me a bit because I don't want to get worse. If I ignore them are they likely to get worse?

I feel like I know who I could tell. I have a friend I trust and who knows that I've been struggling for some time. But I'm afraid of what will happen if I do open up to her about this escalation. Will she automatically have to tell a doctor or my family? I feel like just telling her would help me because it's the keeping the thoughts to myself that is frightening me, but she's wise and could help reassure me. I know I'm not in any danger and don't want her to tell anyone else. I would like to tell her but the fear of the consequences if I do is stopping me.

I’m not sure that telling her but expecting her not to take it any further is fair tbh. It sounds like it’s worrying you, so it will worry her too. Imagine how guilty she’d feel if something did happen and she hadn’t helped you. I think it would be better to speak to your GP as they will be able to look at your medication and perhaps find you something that will help with these intrusive thoughts.

Oooh welcome to the club of intrusive thoughts! Tell your counselor, they will give you techniques to deal with them.
Mine are caused by anxiety and in my experience they don't go away in their own (I mean, they do but you need toold to handle them). If you don't have a counselor, speak to your GP.

Tell the counsellor, they will have heard it before.
Have you had a medication review recently ?

Tell your counsellor. That's who I talk to. Its not fair to tell friends and expect them to keep it to themselves. So I tell my counsellor. He can handle it and as long as I don't have immediate intent, he won't break my confidence.