I don't want to be around my kids

[Dreamitaway]

I have 3 kids. One of which is autistic as am I and I'm finding it all too much.

I don't want to leave my bedroom, I don't want to see my kids. I'm currently unwell and waiting on covid results and I'm just exhausted. My boyfriend is also finding everything hard. He's doing everything, he's feeding the kids, bathing them, cooking and cleaning. I can't help but think he will break and just leave us all. I'm driving him away by my laziness.

My kids always comment how I'm always in bed, that I sleep all the time. I'm finding everything so much

School can help if your willing to speak to them. They can call early help unit and refer you to getting some support. Better to act now than have a crash team around you if your too unwell and your partner does feel overwhelmed.

Can you afford a cleaner? Could children do after school club a couple of days a week?

Is boyfriend the Dad? Is there anyone else to help with children? Maybe your sister will take them out for you if you say you're struggling? Obviously they need to recover from covid first.

Thank you everyone. I had a few good days but now straight back into the pit of depression. It's so tiring and makes me feel so useless. Every person in my house has covid, except me, so I'm having to do all the running around and I'm done.