BPD - how do I approach yet another assessment?

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I self referred to the mental health team with what I suspect are BPD symptoms. I've had two telephone assessments and have a third in 2 weeks with a nurse. I feel I'm getting nowhere. They keep asking about suicidal intent, but don't seem interested in the reasons I feel I may be suffering with BPD. I don't know what to say to make them listen I'm just tired of feeling like this and want some help or at least to know what is wrong with me.

Anyone had an assessment? What did they ask? They seem to just focus on suicide. Is that all that matters? Doesn't it matter that I feel unstable, don't know who I am, that I feel either suffocated or alone, that I'm paranoid about people talking about me, that I've no idea who I am, that I'm just what people want me to be, changing my identity to fit with what people want.

I don't know what I hope to achieve here. I just feel this is going to be another wasted opportunity to get help

They will always need to check out your mood, risk factors such as suicidal thoughts/ plans etc
They should also be asking you about :
What you think your current problem is
The development / history of the problem
The impact on your life due to your problems
What your goals are
Your strengths / Interests
Current social functioning and relationships
Childhood / family experiences
Adverse experiences

Ask if they are following a core mental health assessment

What their formulation / summary of your difficulties are

What they advise regarding service provision

Hope that helps

Thanks for your reply.

They just seemed to concentrate on only that.

I'm incredibly nervous on the phone, so find it difficult to ask questions. I still don't know if they'll provide any support. I've had three telephone assessments I think, or triage, I don't know what the difference is. They ask the same questions each time.

I've had assessments before, they end up just offering me cbt, but that was before I suspected BPD. I'm not sure went no one's picked up on it before though.