*TW Suicide* Does anyone else have these thoughts?

[MagicMatilda]

Nearly everyday I have suicidal thoughts run through my mind. I know 1000% I wouldn’t act on them. I’m fed up with constantly feeling like this.

I genuinely have nothing to feel low about. Great husband, children, no money issues. Have everything I could want which makes me feel even worse and more confused. Why am I not happy?!

Anyone else in the same boat?

Every day. Some days it’s almost overwhelming and other days I shrug the thoughts off.

I did. Anti-depressants (Sertraline 200mg) really help me in that regard.

@MagicMatilda - what prompts the thoughts? Is there a pattern?

@mumwhatnothing

Every day. Some days it’s almost overwhelming and other days I shrug the thoughts off.

Sorry to hear you are feeling like this too. Does anything help?

@SwissCheeseRentedChildren

I did. Anti-depressants (Sertraline 200mg) really help me in that regard.

I don’t feel depressed day to day though. Did you? Very hard to explain and the thought of going to the Gp scares me.

[quote Sarahlou63]@MagicMatilda - what prompts the thoughts? Is there a pattern?[/quote]
Nothing I can put my finger on and no pattern to it. 😰

Hmmm. There's something going on in your subconscious that's trying to get your attention. Worth trying to replace those thoughts with ones of winning the Euromillions as soon as you catch yourself, but ultimately you need to figure out what's happening under the surface.

Yes, the depression was all-encompassing really. I mean, I still have chronic illness(es) and a wonky, obsessive, and ASD (atypical) brain, but to have the tears and existential despair removed is really quite something.

I have intrusive thoughts. Every day, many many times a day, ‘kill yourself’ runs through my head. Maybe a hundred times a day? I would never act on it. Is that like what you mean? I am not depressed, have a lovely life, adore DH and the kids. No rhyme or reason. Just seems like a duff circuit in my brain.

I think I have thought a lot about suicide and ending my life for most of my adult life. Like others I wouldn't actually do it, but I do thinking about it more than other people (I assume). I have recently had issues with a phobia which I required CBT and medication for. That became so overwhelming I had a very different period of actually wishing I was dead because the phobia is so unbearable. That was part of the phobia and I know if feel like that I need to take steps. I mention that as they are two very different ways of "thinking about" suicide