Serious PTSD flare up.

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Really struggling with life atm, trying to keep my head above water and failing. My sister in law hates me and has labelled me a narcissist which has really hurt my feelings, my husbands whole family believe I am the reason he doesn’t have a lot to do with them when I have always tried my best to be supportive of their turbulent relationships; which is not easy as I come from a very stable and loving household. I suffer with PTSD due to a cancer diagnosis at quite a young age and struggle with hypersensitivity because of it, to be called a narcissist is one of the worst things someone could call me as I do try my best to be a good person?? Am I a narcissist? I’ve taken a few tests and they’re saying I’m not but I can’t help but feel maybe she’s right, maybe my husband and my daughter would be better off without me around? Maybe I’m toxic? Am I a burden because of my constant twoing and froing with my mental health?
I wish I was normal, I wish things didn’t get to me, I wish I was stronger.

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I completely get this Problems Whirlpool. I also have PTSD (from caring for DH with cancer) which still gets triggered every now and then.
I think you've already achieved the first step in that you know it's PTSD.
What works for me is to write down what's worrying me and divide the list into (A) things I can't do anything about and (B) things I can.
List A gets parked until my worry time (same time each day).
List B is broken down into manageable chunks.
It takes work but gradually this helps me to get back on an even keel.
Being accused of being a narcissist? That's just their opinion. In my opinion, the fact you're worrying about it means you're not.
Hope this helps.

Generally those who are so quick to call others narcs are actually narcs themselves. Sorry to hear you are struggling, try not to give fuel to the fire that's what she will want. Narcissists need to get bored of you to leave you alone so just be as boring as you can x

It doesn't sound like you are the narcissist. Try to separate yourself from SIL for some time and focus on yourself and your other relationships. There's nothing wrong with needing support and you can access that through GP.